Hi all. I have been married for over 10 years and I am planning to get divorce very soon. But I am so scared to be alone because he is the only one I have in this country. even thought my parents live in the Midwest the rest of my family and friends live in Europe. I know many people here but don't have many good friends. I don't know what to do: he is a good guy but at the same time he acts like an idiot! I am sick of him because he is boring, antisocial, never takes risks etc. And I am so different from him, I am spontaneous, creative, fun. Even though he he gladly gives me my space, he can be controlling and wants to change me. I want to leave him but. I am thinking, will I ever find someone who will care for me and love me? Or should I settle with him?I am scared to live alone!! I am so depressed because my life sucks. Like today, I spent day at the beach and will eat dinner alone because he doesn't even eat.- he is obsessed with vegan food and I don't even know where he is - as always. Thanks if any of you read this; I feel better after writing it but it doesn't change my situation.