I was married for 20 yrs when I found out my husband had been cheating on be and had been for 10 yrs. He was living with someone else for 2 yrs. He worked in another province and was only home for winter. He told her we were separated and was staying at his moms when he was home. It has been 5 yrs now and we are divorced. My last child has moved out and I am I always thought when this time in my life came we would be a couple and could travel. Our kids were close in age. 20, 21, 22, and 23. Now it feels like I have no one. He still lives out of province and has a new finance. They recently got back from Mexico for the second time. I feel like this should have been our time. I haven't dated since him but feel like if I don't he will think I still want him but I don't.