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Ms. Medusa
I'm recently-divorced woman in my mid-40s. In the year since, I have bought my own place, managed to keep my job, made new friends, and started over. I've done pretty well, so far. Except that I feel like I'm in a cocoon watching the world go by, feeling old and unattractive. When it comes to meeting people, I have done the usual things: joined a gym, joined museums, attended classes, gone grocery shopping, gotten a facial, lost 25lbs, rebuilt my wardrobe and kitchen appliance collection-I'm still working up my nerve to attend Tango classes-but I'm invisible. As for enjoying my alone time. most days it's fine but some days it's really difficult-like now. So, what did you do to heal? I feel stuck.
He has moved on as well, although much faster than I. He started dating while we were still legally married. He has found someone new and she and her children and dog are moving in with him next month. We haven't been divorced a year. I don't love him. I don't miss him. I resent that a man who would start conversations with you know what's wrong with you? can find someone so quickly. I haven't had so much as a coffee date. And, yes, my rational brain is telling me it's too soon, I'm still in mourning, I'm not ready, but my irrational lizard brain wants to punch him in the face-again-and run off and get laid.
So, about that healing? What did you do?