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Cayman
Taking the time to research therapists is hard with 2 kids and a husband. I know I shouldn't feel bad for looking but I do. Like I'm doing something bad. This emotional rollercoaster is stressing me out. I have so much on my plate and I have been forced to seek help on my own now too. From pissed to stressed to depressed to sureel and back to pissed again, over and over again. He wanted to talk but I was in no mood to talk right then, got pissed because he wanted me to drop everything to talk because NOW it's a problem. Really? There's been a problem for so long. I've spoken to him about it and got absolutely nothing. Oh wait, once he reacted and it wasn't very mature, he wanted to immediately split up. Of course, I told him he was being very dramatic I just wanted to communicate to you and now we settled on where we are now. Limbo as to what to do. It's what we do. It's like he's waiting for me to make a move. He brings it up when I've obviousely simmering for some time. I'm not ready, I bring it up, he's not ready. It's unreal. Mind boggling. This dance we do. I need help sorting this out. So I've decided on a therapist for myself. I'll go over it with another person to figure out if this is a relationship that is good for me and the kids. Selfish maybe? Can I be?