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KnoxGirl
Hi all,
New to the site. I am having such a hard time deciphering whether my inclinatin to leave is right or wrong. As I can see on this site,something that seems to be a common theme, and what I struggle with is a lack of physical attraction for my partner. For years I have been trying to intellectualize my scrutiny of his looks/lack of attraction attraction, pathologize my feelings as relating to ROCD(please chime in if you ever sought validation here) but I think I’ve finally come to realize the pain of staying Is worse than the fear of leaving. It’s so so sad because he is a great man that loves me and our two children (ages 5 and 2) so much. He is a great provider, loving and kind. He checked so many boxes for a young girl picturing a a life with a stable husband and children could imagine.
I feel so guilty that I have taken us so far down this road when there was ambivalence on my part from the start. Any support would be so greatly appreciated as I try to forge ahead with an in-home separation for a little while until we can figure out our situation more formally through a (hopefully peaceful) mediation process.