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Hi guys - I'm married 1.5 years to a wonderful man with whom I've been with for 7 years total. I've always known there was very little emotional chemistry between us, early in our dating-ship, he attempted to leave me a few times, to which I convinced him otherwise. His reasons back then were incompatibility. Fast forward 7 years, and I'm married, he takes care of me, is kind, is handsome - but we do not have much passion or intimacy or flirtatiousness in our marriage. I am an extremely passionate person and I knew I was consciously de-prioritizing that for the other things like stability, I don't think he'll cheat on me, he comes from a great family, potentially great father - all things that I was missing in past relationships.
At this point, I've shared with him how I've felt and he's crushed. He's so hurt and I feel so selfish and ridiculous for putting us in this situation. I've also found myself an a sort of conundrum since I've been connecting with a gentleman who does have that passion with me, to which I feel extremely guilty for, but can't stop. I realize that's not helping our situation.
Anyways, just needed to let that out. We are going to counseling next week.